Wednesday, June 26, 2013

My Song of Redemption

This lover of my soul has looked at me and said yes. He's said yes, and this yes completely destroys my defenses, shatters my walls. Because His yes? It wasn't just said over His shoulder in passing, being lost into the airwaves. No...His yes was said face to face.

My life stopped. The yes, it shaped a turning in my life. It resounded in eternity. That moment that I said yes to Him, and Him to me, has shaped every moment since then, and my life reflects the yes. I live in anticipation of the yes, in celebration of the yes, and in full awareness of what this yes means. 

Ah, but He was the instigator. Even while my life and heart and mind screamed No and hurled rejection in His face, His kindness calmly whispered yes in my ear, even in my darkest moments. He was not wavered by my neglect of Him, at my obvious abuse of His compassion. He was always there, hovering and waiting in joyful anticipation of the day I would whisper through the strength I could muster through my tears, a quiet, 'yes.' 

Louder and louder my yes has become! With new mercies every day fueling my fire. His joy has unlocked my voice and I sing my song of redemption from the rooftops. I live expectant and aware that He longs to continue to say yes to me, for He cannot resist His children. And there is a passion and excitement building in me to see others finally get it as well. And if I have the honor,  to usher them into their own Yes.

Beautiful. Beautiful one. Irresistable. Undeniable. Unexplainable. Joyful. Hopeful. Great. All that's good. We cannot stay away from you. You have captured our hearts. One day, all that see you will turn their hearts, and their affections, and with their whole hearts will say, YES!

-L-

Peace and Freedom


There's a sweet ecstasy when you realize you're thinking about absolutely nothing because you're aware that you don't need to. When you're aware of God's peace because it's so captured your heart and you give your mind over to it. 

Peace that passes understanding, what a beautiful thing. What a glorious, marvelous thing. There's almost nothing that leaves me aware of Him more than when I should not be feeling joy, and that's what I'm feeling. When I know that I should be feeling sad and instead I've never felt more alive. When I should be scared and yet one word from Him silences my fears. When I want answers to questions I've had for years and yet a simple, "It will be ok, Lara" from Him is totally fine with me.

Peace that calms raging seas.

Because, have you ever truly stopped and thought about the implications of the fact that Jesus didn't stay in the grave? I often find myself getting to the cross, but forget to truly experience the resurrection! I mean, really...have you thought about it? Like, sat and allowed yourself body, soul and spirit to be completely wrecked by it? I'm almost undone every time.

Because Jesus didn't stay dead, we now live FROM victory, not searching FOR it! It's already over! We just now have to live not only aware of it, but transformed by it! I don't know...it's just good news that I cannot possibly get over, and hope I never EVER do!

There's something that clicks inside of you when you realize exactly what Jesus still being alive means. There's something even more powerful that happens when you realize that the SAME power that rose Jesus from the dead now LIVES inside of you! That. Is. Crazy.

I'm pretty sure that when Jesus walked out of the tomb, He was laughing.

And I'm pretty sure that when we are aware of these implications, of Jesus being alive, we will live and walk in freedom and in peace.



Freedom, it tastes so sweet, it feels like life undiluted.
Freedom, you've raptured me, captivating my mind till I'm paralyzed in joy.

Oh, there's nothing left to fear, no worries, not a care when I'm standing here with you. 
You've taken over me, completely over me, and I am finally set free.