"Except when you don't. Because, sometimes, you won't."
I hate when I don't make adequate time to write. Especially blog. So much has happened in the past few weeks that I found myself thinking, "I want to blog about that! Oh, no I want to blog about that!" multiple times. This causes me to sit at my computer and generally just think about mush when I actually do make time to write. So today I made time to write...and this is the only thing I can think about. Actually, it started this morning. It was 5am at Target and I just got done running a repack all the way to the other end of the store. I was walking back to my department to continue pushing my freight and this phrase started running through my head over and over again.
This line comes from one of my favorite children's books. It was the book I got the first day I started kindergarten. It was the book I reread at high school graduation and cried because although I obviously had no idea at the time exactly the places God would take me, the Spirit within leapt at the thought that there could be more, and that I could actually have it. The premise of the book is that there are amazing places that each person is going to go. Amazing things that will happen, all in due time. That we will move mountains and see things in our lifetime that we can't even imagine.
This phrase is sprinkled in. "Except when you don't. Because, sometimes, you won't." Just looking at this phrase I kind of wondered, "Lord, why this phrase?" Just looking at it makes you feel a bit defeated. It makes you wonder why you failed. This morning it was bouncing around in my head, not in a sad tune as you might imagine, but rather in a happy, bouncy tune. Now, call it lack of sleep, or just plain the strange way my brain works, but this phrase made hope and passion rise up inside of me.
If there's one thing I constantly struggle with, one thing that i wish we didn't have to do-it's process. I realized at the beginning of this Summer that this one little word had almsot become my least favorite word/meaning in the english language. I've spent almost my whole life trying to become this person that seemed so far off from my reality that the concept of loving process just seemed like such a contradiction to what was possible. Fact is, God loves process. He loves the journey. He loves us at every stage just like parents love their children at every stage. So why do we hate process so very much?
I was liberated this morning when this little phrase danced around my head because I think that when we fall, when we have moments when we 'don't' and when we have moments when we 'won't'; when we have moments in our process that we would deem faliures, it actually gives us moments that we can turn into momentum. It causes opportunities to create a deeper relationship with God. I don't know how to explain it, but the history that we get to create with The Lord in moments like this is so precious to His heart. The fact that even in 'failures' i get to choose relationship and I get to take on what God thinks of me releases joy and such blessing, it's unexplainable.
It's in those 'except when you don't. Because sometimes, you won't" moments that we get to see His strength in our weakness and praise Him for it. It's in those moments that you have deeper revelations of His grace, His strength, His power, His goodness, His mercy, His compassion, etc. And it leaves you wanting to be a better person, not because of how bad you are, but because of how drawn by His goodness you are. They are special opportunites, these moments when you've come to the end of you're own earthly power and realize that you are a part of something much greater, much bigger than yourself.
Embrace these moments. Embrace and love this process. It is so not about having everything in order. It's all about coming under HIS order. It's so not about you getting everything right, but being humbled under HIS rightness so that you can become His righteousness.
"Except when you don't, because sometimes you won't." What beautiful moments to create precious, intimate times with Him. What beautiful moments to see yourself/your situations as He sees them. Not moments to be frustrated at your process, but to celebrate the deeper, more intimate connection you're getting to have because of them. Just another weapon to destroy the works of the enemy. Causing what we used to deem 'failure' as greater opportunity for deeper relationship. Wow. Can't think of anything more disarming or liberating.
So go for it! Because, really in the arms of the one you can trust. What can you lose? "Oh, the Place You'll go!"
Thursday, September 19, 2013
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
Fall and what comes along with it...school
Well, the Halloween candy is set at Target, fall cosmetic shades are being stocked, and pumpkin spice lates will soon be tempting me every time I drive past a Starbucks. Yes, fall is here and along with it school and all of the busy-ness that seems to come simultaneously.
For me, one week from today I will have the honor of starting my 2nd year at the Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry here in Redding, Ca. I say honor, because the honor really is mine. Sure, I will walk out next spring having learned and experienced so much. And no doubt I will learn more in one year than a seemingly longer period elsewhere. But the honor really is mine. To sit under this calober of teaching. To go to a church where so much is happening. Where miracles and signs and wonders are just a natural part of the DNA. A church where on any given Sunday I go and meet people from nations all over the world. Where I look around and there are doctors, former gang members, teachers, the homeless. People from every walk of life in a glorious, beautiful mess...people who are passionate about The Lord and making Him known.
This year of school is so different for me. Last year as I walked into 1st year I had no idea what to expect. I had no expectations. I literally went to 1st year out of obedience to The Lord. In my mind I was done with school. I wanted to go DO something. But The Lord had other plans and it is safe to say that I learned things about my life, my future, that I would have never learned had I not been there. 2nd year is different. As I walk in next week I feel that I have a very clear picture of what I'm going after, what I hope to see. I'm sure God will change some or all of that because that's kind of how I operate with Him. But I am so excited to see all that awaits me there.
This blog is to serve as an update for those who care to know...
-I start 2nd year next week, September 3rd.
-2nd year is designed to do more leadership develop, offering more leadership opportunities, including the chance to travel with pastors from the church here.
-in 2nd year there's more freedom to choose more focused classes on specific things.
I believe part of this year includes for me:
-gaining vision for future ministry including a vision for what my role is in the Middle East of just in general.
-opportunity to make connections with people all over the world that I will be working alongside for years to come.
-learning as much as I can from leadership here, more of an opportunity to connect and glean from them.
-chances to lead worship again and hopefully travel to speak, etc.
-beginning to learn Arabic.
Other things I have going on:
-helping in a ministry that works overseas in Ireland. Being as involved in this as I can.
-working 30 hours at Target, one evening a week at a bakery to subsidize.
-in the process of joining a missions board so that when I'm out of school I am covered and ready to begin in the area of my life.
So yes, this is what's going on. Life is very full, but very good. I would love if you would pray that I get everything out of this year of schooling as I possibly can and everything that I'm supposed to. Pray that work wouldn't be overwhelming for me, that The Lord would provide pockets of time and energy to develop deep, strong relationships. And that when its His timing I would be able to step out of work and into ministry as a vocation.
I am still in the process of raising funds for school. It is my dream that school would be paid by day 1. This way I wouldn't have to worry at all, and I would immediately be able to start traveling (a certain portion of our tuition goes to traveling).
Thank you so much for loving me and standing with me in prayer. If you do feel like you would like to give towards tuition I would so appreciate it. Thank you for partnering with me in whatever way The Lord leads.
Much love,
Lara
To give:
Go to ibssm.org, on the bottom click on "give to tuition" type my name in. Push give towards tuition. Or you can send a check to Bethel Church ATTN: BSSM Tuition 933 College View Drive, Redding, CA 96003 and put a note in with my name.
For me, one week from today I will have the honor of starting my 2nd year at the Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry here in Redding, Ca. I say honor, because the honor really is mine. Sure, I will walk out next spring having learned and experienced so much. And no doubt I will learn more in one year than a seemingly longer period elsewhere. But the honor really is mine. To sit under this calober of teaching. To go to a church where so much is happening. Where miracles and signs and wonders are just a natural part of the DNA. A church where on any given Sunday I go and meet people from nations all over the world. Where I look around and there are doctors, former gang members, teachers, the homeless. People from every walk of life in a glorious, beautiful mess...people who are passionate about The Lord and making Him known.
This year of school is so different for me. Last year as I walked into 1st year I had no idea what to expect. I had no expectations. I literally went to 1st year out of obedience to The Lord. In my mind I was done with school. I wanted to go DO something. But The Lord had other plans and it is safe to say that I learned things about my life, my future, that I would have never learned had I not been there. 2nd year is different. As I walk in next week I feel that I have a very clear picture of what I'm going after, what I hope to see. I'm sure God will change some or all of that because that's kind of how I operate with Him. But I am so excited to see all that awaits me there.
This blog is to serve as an update for those who care to know...
-I start 2nd year next week, September 3rd.
-2nd year is designed to do more leadership develop, offering more leadership opportunities, including the chance to travel with pastors from the church here.
-in 2nd year there's more freedom to choose more focused classes on specific things.
I believe part of this year includes for me:
-gaining vision for future ministry including a vision for what my role is in the Middle East of just in general.
-opportunity to make connections with people all over the world that I will be working alongside for years to come.
-learning as much as I can from leadership here, more of an opportunity to connect and glean from them.
-chances to lead worship again and hopefully travel to speak, etc.
-beginning to learn Arabic.
Other things I have going on:
-helping in a ministry that works overseas in Ireland. Being as involved in this as I can.
-working 30 hours at Target, one evening a week at a bakery to subsidize.
-in the process of joining a missions board so that when I'm out of school I am covered and ready to begin in the area of my life.
So yes, this is what's going on. Life is very full, but very good. I would love if you would pray that I get everything out of this year of schooling as I possibly can and everything that I'm supposed to. Pray that work wouldn't be overwhelming for me, that The Lord would provide pockets of time and energy to develop deep, strong relationships. And that when its His timing I would be able to step out of work and into ministry as a vocation.
I am still in the process of raising funds for school. It is my dream that school would be paid by day 1. This way I wouldn't have to worry at all, and I would immediately be able to start traveling (a certain portion of our tuition goes to traveling).
Thank you so much for loving me and standing with me in prayer. If you do feel like you would like to give towards tuition I would so appreciate it. Thank you for partnering with me in whatever way The Lord leads.
Much love,
Lara
To give:
Go to ibssm.org, on the bottom click on "give to tuition" type my name in. Push give towards tuition. Or you can send a check to Bethel Church ATTN: BSSM Tuition 933 College View Drive, Redding, CA 96003 and put a note in with my name.
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
We are not, nor can we be forgotten.
We all have moments of weakness. Moments when we take our eyes off of The Lord, off of all that He's done for us, all that He is. Last night I found myself in one of those moments. I found my myself journaling and in one instance wrote the following line, "papa God, please don't forget me."
This, of course made me stop. How could God ever forget me? Why was I believing the lie that He could forget me? And what was making me feel that way? You see, we have a choosing to make when we recognize that there is a lie in our minds that is winning over the truth. We have a choice to make; believe the lie and listen to our emotions, or replace the lie with the truth and no matter what the emotions or feelings, believe that truth.
Last night, feeling like I was forgotten by The Lord was the lie that was trying to gain ground in my mind and heart. It would have been really easy to look into my life and find proof to support that lie. I could have found ground to justify my feelings. But instead, I went looking for the truth. And I didn't have to look far.
I first went to the 'fear nots' of Isaiah.
Isaiah 41:10 "fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
41:13 "for I, The Lord your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, 'fear not, I am the one who helps you.'"
43:1-2 "but now thus says The Lord, he who created you, o Jacob, he who formed you, o Israel; 'fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through the fire you will not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you."
54:4-5 "fear not, for you will not be ashamed; be not confounded for you will not be disgraced; for you will forget the shame of your youth, and the reproach of your widowhood, you will remember no more. For your Maker is your husband, The Lord of hosts is his name; and the holy one of Israel is your Redeemer, the God of the whole earth He is called."
After Isaiah I was reading a book assigned for 2nd year and there was this quote: "We should live in such perfect love (with The Lord) that we could not even imagine His failing us or forgetting us."
Next The Lord reminded me of this thought of Jesus:
"Looking to Jesus, the founder and perfect of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God." (Hebrews 12:2) I can't think of anyone who had more grounds to feel 'forgotten' by the father. Carrying the sins of the world, dying AS sin even though He knew no sin. And yet He did it, and why? Because of the joy set before Him. That joy is me. That joy is you.
Needless to say, I repented of feeling forgotten and I've changed the way that I think. We are locked in His slight, we are before His gaze. We just need to remind ourselves of that. As we press in to go deeper in relationship with Him, we will have to remind ourselves of that even more. He does not abandon us, He does not set us up to fail, and He cannot possibly forget about us. If you find yourself here, in the place where it would be easy to prove the point that The Lord has somehow forgotten you, I can tell you with great confidence that He has not. He cannot. He is love, and love does not reject, does not neglect, and does not forget how to love.
You are not forgotten.
L
I woke up this morning of news that proved this. It is an amazing testimony of Gods goodness yet again. He hears our cries and our prayers and knows exactly what we need and when we need it.
This, of course made me stop. How could God ever forget me? Why was I believing the lie that He could forget me? And what was making me feel that way? You see, we have a choosing to make when we recognize that there is a lie in our minds that is winning over the truth. We have a choice to make; believe the lie and listen to our emotions, or replace the lie with the truth and no matter what the emotions or feelings, believe that truth.
Last night, feeling like I was forgotten by The Lord was the lie that was trying to gain ground in my mind and heart. It would have been really easy to look into my life and find proof to support that lie. I could have found ground to justify my feelings. But instead, I went looking for the truth. And I didn't have to look far.
I first went to the 'fear nots' of Isaiah.
Isaiah 41:10 "fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
41:13 "for I, The Lord your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, 'fear not, I am the one who helps you.'"
43:1-2 "but now thus says The Lord, he who created you, o Jacob, he who formed you, o Israel; 'fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through the fire you will not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you."
54:4-5 "fear not, for you will not be ashamed; be not confounded for you will not be disgraced; for you will forget the shame of your youth, and the reproach of your widowhood, you will remember no more. For your Maker is your husband, The Lord of hosts is his name; and the holy one of Israel is your Redeemer, the God of the whole earth He is called."
After Isaiah I was reading a book assigned for 2nd year and there was this quote: "We should live in such perfect love (with The Lord) that we could not even imagine His failing us or forgetting us."
Next The Lord reminded me of this thought of Jesus:
"Looking to Jesus, the founder and perfect of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God." (Hebrews 12:2) I can't think of anyone who had more grounds to feel 'forgotten' by the father. Carrying the sins of the world, dying AS sin even though He knew no sin. And yet He did it, and why? Because of the joy set before Him. That joy is me. That joy is you.
Needless to say, I repented of feeling forgotten and I've changed the way that I think. We are locked in His slight, we are before His gaze. We just need to remind ourselves of that. As we press in to go deeper in relationship with Him, we will have to remind ourselves of that even more. He does not abandon us, He does not set us up to fail, and He cannot possibly forget about us. If you find yourself here, in the place where it would be easy to prove the point that The Lord has somehow forgotten you, I can tell you with great confidence that He has not. He cannot. He is love, and love does not reject, does not neglect, and does not forget how to love.
You are not forgotten.
L
I woke up this morning of news that proved this. It is an amazing testimony of Gods goodness yet again. He hears our cries and our prayers and knows exactly what we need and when we need it.
Monday, July 22, 2013
A little note to some world changers: A few of my thoughts from Camp.
Life is brilliant and there are moments, little pockets of time that make you acutely aware of this fact. If I ever doubt that serving God is the most amazing, joyful adventure ever I really only need to remember last week and I am 100% sure that doubt will go away.
If any of you know me, you know that I love camp. I don't really love TO camp, but I love camp ministry so, so very much. It's such an amazing opportunity to have the full attention of youth, to pour your heart out into people you may never see again, and to watch God literally transform lives within a weeks notice, or within a moments notice, for that matter. The King of all camps, as far as I'm concerned, is High School camp. Because if a 14-18 year old is giving up a whole week, no cell phone, no tv, no sports or work for a whole week in the prime time of freedom...you know they are serious about growing in the Lord. Which totally sets them up to see amazing things. God loves to encounter the hungry. And if I've ever seen a group of hungry 'kids' (sorry yall, that's what you are to me now) it was last week.
It all started a few months ago, when the Lord really began to stir in my heart about camp this year. After having been involved in some way at Bible Memory for 15 years I was super bummed last year that I wasn't able to be at any camps. Looking at finances and circumstances it seemed the same was going to be again for me this year. That is, until some very amazing people stepped up big and displayed the extravagant nature of God for me. To say I was excited would be an understatement. I literally ran around my deck yelling quite passionately.
But....this blog is not about me....
This blog is about the most amazing people on the face of the planet. The people that reminded me, once again, why I am alive. The people who are not going to be world changers, but already are. This blog is about the 127 campers from BMC Indiana High School Camp. I woke up yesterday and realized that I missed all of you. As I sit typing this I am weeping at how proud I feel, at how honored I am to have spent a week with you. I think I speak on behalf of all of the staff that were present last week in saying that we cannot explain how much we are certain that what began in you last week will never be stopped.
Your willingness to go where the Lord was leading last week, even if you had never experienced it before was so fun to watch. Your hunger, your passion, your humility, and your love for God and the Word makes me extremely aware that there are very good things ahead not only for you, but the people the Lord puts in your life. If you continue to press into Him, to seek out the truth in the Word, and to live the full gospel of Christ out in your life you are in for the ride of your lives!
Never forget that Christ died that you may be filled with the fullness of Him, with the fullness of His Spirit, and with power. Power to serve in every area of your life. So that the Blind will see, the deaf will hear, and so that there may be freedom for those held in bondage. You are filled with the same power that raised Christ Jesus from the grave...so what can't you do? What is impossible for the God that lives inside of you and that wants to be released through YOU to the people around you? Nothing. And I am so excited that so many of you came to this realization last week.
Where will He take you? I am so excited to see the journey He takes you on in the next years of your life as you submit everything to Him. Salvation is free, but the Kingdom will cost you everything. And it is oh, SO worth it. If you are not a camper and you're reading this, let me talk to you for a second. I know that we live in dark and troubled days. I know that things are happening everywhere that are hard and evil and unjust. But let me tell you something...as I stood before each of these last week I can honestly say that the Lord is totally winning. It's not even close. Things are getting lighter, getting better at the same time. And I will not be swayed from my position in that thinking. These 127 are my proof. God has a solution....and I know what their faces look like. They are brilliant. They are coming back to right focus...on a God who saves. On a God who loves. On a God who heals. On a God who cares. On a God who doesn't care about denominational traditions, boundaries, or men's egos. On a God who just wants to passionately pursue people with the help of us, His church. On a God who has already won, and wants us to win too.
'Kids' you've got it. Run. Keep your eyes locked on the Author of your faith. Keep your focus up on Him, establishing His kingdom everywhere you go. We're so excited for you....but it's yours to take and run with. What do you want to see happen this year?
-Focus-
-Lara-
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
My Song of Redemption
This lover of my soul has looked at me and said yes. He's said yes, and this yes completely destroys my defenses, shatters my walls. Because His yes? It wasn't just said over His shoulder in passing, being lost into the airwaves. No...His yes was said face to face.
My life stopped. The yes, it shaped a turning in my life. It resounded in eternity. That moment that I said yes to Him, and Him to me, has shaped every moment since then, and my life reflects the yes. I live in anticipation of the yes, in celebration of the yes, and in full awareness of what this yes means.
Ah, but He was the instigator. Even while my life and heart and mind screamed No and hurled rejection in His face, His kindness calmly whispered yes in my ear, even in my darkest moments. He was not wavered by my neglect of Him, at my obvious abuse of His compassion. He was always there, hovering and waiting in joyful anticipation of the day I would whisper through the strength I could muster through my tears, a quiet, 'yes.'
Louder and louder my yes has become! With new mercies every day fueling my fire. His joy has unlocked my voice and I sing my song of redemption from the rooftops. I live expectant and aware that He longs to continue to say yes to me, for He cannot resist His children. And there is a passion and excitement building in me to see others finally get it as well. And if I have the honor, to usher them into their own Yes.
Beautiful. Beautiful one. Irresistable. Undeniable. Unexplainable. Joyful. Hopeful. Great. All that's good. We cannot stay away from you. You have captured our hearts. One day, all that see you will turn their hearts, and their affections, and with their whole hearts will say, YES!
-L-
My life stopped. The yes, it shaped a turning in my life. It resounded in eternity. That moment that I said yes to Him, and Him to me, has shaped every moment since then, and my life reflects the yes. I live in anticipation of the yes, in celebration of the yes, and in full awareness of what this yes means.
Ah, but He was the instigator. Even while my life and heart and mind screamed No and hurled rejection in His face, His kindness calmly whispered yes in my ear, even in my darkest moments. He was not wavered by my neglect of Him, at my obvious abuse of His compassion. He was always there, hovering and waiting in joyful anticipation of the day I would whisper through the strength I could muster through my tears, a quiet, 'yes.'
Louder and louder my yes has become! With new mercies every day fueling my fire. His joy has unlocked my voice and I sing my song of redemption from the rooftops. I live expectant and aware that He longs to continue to say yes to me, for He cannot resist His children. And there is a passion and excitement building in me to see others finally get it as well. And if I have the honor, to usher them into their own Yes.
Beautiful. Beautiful one. Irresistable. Undeniable. Unexplainable. Joyful. Hopeful. Great. All that's good. We cannot stay away from you. You have captured our hearts. One day, all that see you will turn their hearts, and their affections, and with their whole hearts will say, YES!
-L-
Peace and Freedom
There's a sweet ecstasy when you realize you're thinking about absolutely nothing because you're aware that you don't need to. When you're aware of God's peace because it's so captured your heart and you give your mind over to it.
Peace that passes understanding, what a beautiful thing. What a glorious, marvelous thing. There's almost nothing that leaves me aware of Him more than when I should not be feeling joy, and that's what I'm feeling. When I know that I should be feeling sad and instead I've never felt more alive. When I should be scared and yet one word from Him silences my fears. When I want answers to questions I've had for years and yet a simple, "It will be ok, Lara" from Him is totally fine with me.
Peace that calms raging seas.
Because, have you ever truly stopped and thought about the implications of the fact that Jesus didn't stay in the grave? I often find myself getting to the cross, but forget to truly experience the resurrection! I mean, really...have you thought about it? Like, sat and allowed yourself body, soul and spirit to be completely wrecked by it? I'm almost undone every time.
Because Jesus didn't stay dead, we now live FROM victory, not searching FOR it! It's already over! We just now have to live not only aware of it, but transformed by it! I don't know...it's just good news that I cannot possibly get over, and hope I never EVER do!
There's something that clicks inside of you when you realize exactly what Jesus still being alive means. There's something even more powerful that happens when you realize that the SAME power that rose Jesus from the dead now LIVES inside of you! That. Is. Crazy.
I'm pretty sure that when Jesus walked out of the tomb, He was laughing.
And I'm pretty sure that when we are aware of these implications, of Jesus being alive, we will live and walk in freedom and in peace.
Freedom, it tastes so sweet, it feels like life undiluted.
Freedom, you've raptured me, captivating my mind till I'm paralyzed in joy.
Oh, there's nothing left to fear, no worries, not a care when I'm standing here with you.
You've taken over me, completely over me, and I am finally set free.
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Mysteries
It really has been too long once again. And once again I am lacking the creative touch that I feel is needed to start these random musings. But I feel that a blog is due before my trip to the other side of the world. I leave for Lebanon in 4 days. I am beyond excited. If I could leave right now, I would go without a suitcase, I'm that ready. But alas, 3 days of work, 2 days of school and a list to get done as long as a yard stick still stand in my way. And so I've been working extremely hard to focus the last few days. To focus on not getting my suitcase out, to not allow my mind to go to the endless things I think I have to remember or I will die (after 2 weeks? What has Westernism done to my brain!)
But most of all I've been focusing really hard (which I need to do at all times) on getting every single gem I can out of this week. I would hate to miss a jewel, a treasure that The Lord has hidden for me here and now because I'm too focused on the there and then of the next season. Oh, how often am I guilty of that?! And let me tell you, since this has been my focus, I have had some of the most precious moments with The Lord. The most precious that I've had.
Really, I didn't write to write about any of that (surprise!). I did, however want to share some thoughts I quickly jotted down today during worship. It was such a rich time and I just wanted to challenge you with it. It's core to who I am, and I'm telling you, it's truth.
-By embracing and being excited about the mysteries of God, the things not understood, you are declaring the mightiness of God and opening yourself up to receive the beautiful things that are unknown to those who are constantly in need of an explanation. Sometimes you just have to say 'no' to needing to understand everything and say 'yes' to an all-knowing, all-powerful God that created you before the world knew of you. The highest form of trust you can show Him is to stand in the midst of a situation that makes no sense and worship as if you do. I have a high value for reason and thinking- i love to strategize and find new things, but I run into the mysteries of God. There has been nothing else that leaves me in awe of His vastness more than seeing something from Him that makes no sense to me but speaks of His glory. When I run into Him and make Him my complete focus and lay down my need to understand, I find that it puts me in a position where I let Him be my reason. He can show me how and what to think. I think that too often we miss what God is doing because we are expecting something specific and God is doing or saying something else. When we are growing in deeper and more intimate relationship with him we should constantly be in situations where we are learning something new from and about him. I worry if we feel that we have Him figured out. He is a beautiful, creative, fun, good God that loves to talk and meet with His kids. I pray that we can rediscover that more and more as we grow in awe of Him.
"There's no place I'd rather be, than here in your love, here in your love."
I think that's all for now. Goodnight from Redding-land.
Lara
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