Week One of BSSM.

Where do I even begin?
I am just so constantly amazed that God knows how much we need things, when it's not even on our radar and when we think we don't need something. Perhaps that means nothing to anyone else, but after a week like the one I just encountered I am positive that this one thing is true: "God's faithfulness knows no bounds and He will stop at nothing to show us."

I have in the last week:
1)Seen just how much I've needed BSSM. I've always loved God with my whole heart, but something is already coming alive in me that I didn't know was there. My love for Him is burning, and I think for the first time, in a long time, I can feel His love for me burning as well. As we learned this week, we can only love people as well as we love ourselves. I'm excited for a year where I can once again learn how to be a good daughter, able to receive His love fully and without sabotaging myself with doubt, worry and fear. Being around revivalists from all over the world is amazing! God has already used a few of them to show me just how important my role is, and each of their roles are in the Kingdom and in seeing revival touch every part of the world. Worship has been beyond incredible; somehow worship with 1,100 people of all nationalities and ages just gets you closer to the throne than you've ever been. We're only 3 days in, but I can already see just how much this school year is more than exactly what I've needed and longed for. It has jump-started my faith in ways I've longed for. Faith...I'll get to that later.

2)Been incredibly blessed by 2 amazing women that have walked into my life. With 2 jobs and school these 2 girls have allowed me to be goofy, tired, and sometimes just plain lazy and survive. They have made me coffee, food, and encouraged me in times that I needed it most. I know that with the crazy schedule I have they have enabled me to not just survive, but thrive. After 5 months of living by myself and having to organize and take care of everything it's been an adjustment, but an amazingly joyful one to be able to share life with these girls. They are healthy, steady, and in love with Jesus and I know that God will use them to challenge me into a deeper walk with Him. It's been 2 weeks and I love them both already!

3)By the amazing courage of people, this week I was able to cut my tuition down by $600! This only leaves $1400 left altogether on my tuition and only $400 more  due by the middle of October! YAY! This just so amazes and blesses me. If you are interested in giving in any way for this year, feel free to email me or check previous posts on how to do that.

4) Intaken SO much life-giving information. I seriously don't even know what to write here. I knew that by going to BSSM I would be learning  a lot through our teachers, the Holy Spirit, in worship, and in our revival groups but I seriously had no idea. I would say the theme for me the most this week or what stuck out the most was how much we talked about faith. Here are a few snippets for you to chew on to close this way-too-long yet not-long-enough-to-explain blog:

"Faith is spelled R-I-S-K in the kingdom."
"Faith comes from our capacity to hear His voice, that capacity comes from the word of God."
"Faith can't be drummed up by striving-it comes from the residue of being with the faithful one."
"Faith should be the most normal expression of the believer."
"For faith to function well we have to be more convinced of what we can't see, rather than what we can."
Other things:
"Reasoning without Christ at the center is demonic in nature."
"Freedom is the mark of Heaven's citizenship."
"Life flows from honor."
"God wants to so renew your mind, He can do your will."
"Don't be intimate with God just for ministry's sake, that's called prostitution. Just be with Him for loving sake."
"We must learn to live as one who simply adores God."
(all quotes from Bill Johnson and Kris V.)

That's just a little glimpse into my week and life. For all of those not quite sure about the School of Supernatural Ministry, feel free to ask questions. I am certain that this has been the greatest investment of my time and money thus far in my journey for so many reasons. I have loved every step of my journey and of my life so far, and each step has been significant and important, but if in just 3 days my mindsets can shift so much, and I can come alive like I have, I cannot wait to see where I'm at after 8 months of it.

Week one: complete.
L